Have you ever told yourself you were going to do something and you either did it half-way or not at all yet you possess the passion to do such things?
I, myself, have experienced this a lot. I'm super creative and sometimes begin things without finishing them or speak passionately about doing something then only do it for a couple of days.
Prior to getting pregnant, I did not own a car. I walked everywhere and anywhere rain, sleet, snow, or shine! I had a lot of determination. These days though, I can only walk so far before the stroller won't go or my daughter needs me. I miss walking and the freedom to go wherever whenever regardless of having a car.
I need to lose weight. I have diastasis recti, and I also have surgery for my umbilica hernia in October. Since having my daughter, my body is not the same. I feel weird as though certain things physically are weighing me down. I wonder if surgery will change the way I physically feel.
Perhaps though my being pregnant and having my baby 10 months ago has brought me down mentally and emotionally too though. I do feel tied down. I am not working, but I attend school. I attended full-time this past summer, and it was overwhelming! I barely had enough time to get my work done. Now that I'm back to part-time and my husband is back to teaching, I have no excuse yet here I am choosing to use my time on the computer for most of the day. I'm getting a lot done on the computer though. I do not play games. I am on Facebook staying in touch with the people I hold dear to my heart, keeping them updated on me, and researching questions and other ideas that come into my mind.
I constantly give myself "fresh starts" and say I will do things tomorrow. I don't have a good support system. What I mean by this is I don't hang out with many people with similar interests. My husband is not the encouraging type. He does not work out himself. I desire greatly to inspire him to eat healthier and be more active, but I stumble after day 2. I've mentioned to him how I'd love to have a gym membership for Christmas. Maybe if I was away from my daughter who puts limits on me when I'm with her, perhaps I could get my butt in gear and lose this weight. I've changed my diet as well, but I can't seem to get lower than 190. I'm currently still breastfeeding my daughter, and that has had its struggles as well the past several months. It is not helping me lose weight at all. I have one month until my surgery. Then, I won't be able to do much until my incision heals. I'm rather lost as to what to do. I desire friends with my own interests. I desire to lose weight and be more healthy. I want my daughter to have her breastmilk. I want a lot. Am I being too hard on myself? I can't just make friends. I have tons all across the United States.
Anyone want to be my accountability partner? Perhaps this will help. I have had a cousin whose done this lately, but she is so busy now and just tells me her weight every Friday. You don't have to tell me your weight, but perhaps just be a friend and respectfully motivate me. What other suggestions do any of you have for me?
